i just wrote this in TextEdit (Apple's version of Notepad).
it's generated the most real feeling I've had in a long time.
i'm asking the infp tribe.net community to look it over and offer any relationship advice they can on it, because we relate on a personality-level.
thank you

"i am"

a dreamer
a wisher
a writer of thoughts
inspired more than it may seem
hurt more deeply than you may think

not one to plow into conflict
not a lover of criticism
stronger through my mistakes
somewhere i know i won't be happy like this

confused about my partner
stupidly hoping she will change
waiting for her to see how tender my heart is
bleeding emotion caught in a prison cell

supposed to talk to her about this
hurt from past conflicts and arguments
going to talk to her about my tender underbelly
trying to repair this wound of mine

dying for some independence
yearning for some free time
loving my newborn daughter
hating myself for wrong reasons

changing and i don't like it
one that would rather be poor
aspiring to see meaning in my life
not seeing it right now in my life

in distress
floating on a donut in the ocean
getting cold as the waves crush my strength
not as stupid as she may think

in desperate need of compromise with her
very cold inside my turtle shell
asking for advice on how to approach my partner
hoping it won't be so bad

hopefully walking toward a better place