Depression Blues Ennui etc

topic posted Sun, January 27, 2008 - 11:59 PM by  alan
I got the impression that I'm not the only one here that seems to suffer from not quite depression--not sure if it's just a personality characteristic, don't know why it comes and goes. What do you guys do to treat it, if anything? I don't know why, but I feel like there is a tiny hole in my heart right now.
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alan
Philadelphia
  • Re: Depression Blues Ennui etc

    Mon, January 28, 2008 - 11:32 AM
    What a coincidence!

    I just read a passage by Dr. John Beebe last week that I was discussing with my husband last night. The passage says, "Perhaps we all get into our introverted feeling when we are depressed."

    so... I was asking my husband whether that means people who prefer introverted Feeling are naturally depressed? I have it on my list to ask Beebe about.

    Let me give you some more of the material leading up to that passage. About introverted Feeling, Beebe writes...

    "Introverted Feeling ... can only feel the archetypal image of a situation. It cannot see it. The hoary Indian story of the three blind men and the elephant takes on more meaning if one considers that India is a country where introverted Feeling seems to predominate in collective consciousness. Thus, all of the blind men (there are as many as six in some versions, and sometimes they come from a city in which all of the inhabitants are blind) could be said to represent the introverted feeling function, literally feeling its way slowly around the archetype, the elephant in their midst. Necessarily, a thinking definition of that experience at any movement will be partial -- 'It's a rope', 'It's a snake', 'It's a great mud wall' -- but the *process* never ceases until the elephant is felt entirely. It is important to realize that when the introverted feeling function is, for example, feeling 'bad', it is feeling the entire archetypal category of 'bad' and is not likely to quit until that archetypal badness is felt through. As Jung says,

    The depth of this feeling can only be guessed -- it can never be clearly grasped. It makes people silent and difficult of access; it shrinks back like a violet from the brute nature of the object in order to fill the depths of the subject. It comes out with negative judgments or assumes an air of profound indifference as a means of defense. (Jung 1971: 387)

    Perhaps we all get into our introverted feeling when we are depressed. The important thing to grasp, in understanding introverted feeling, is that archetypes can be *felt* every bit as much as they can be thought about, directly intuited, or experienced somatically. As Jung puts it,

    The primordial images are, of course, just as much ideas as feelings. Fundamental ideas, ideas like God, freedom, and immortality, are just as much feelng-values as they are significant ideas. (Jung 1971: 387-388)

    =============================

    I don't know if you know Beebe's work. He pioneered the 8-function model of type.... AND he describes how his model is related to Jung's "big idea" of "archetypes."

    Beebe also has this fascinating hobby. He types movies.

    Now, most people watch movies and try to type the characters -- "Oh, Tom Cruise played an ESTP" or "Helen Mirren played an ISTJ." That kind of thing.

    What John does is to type the overall movie. The MOVIE has a type. Each of the main characters represents ONE of the cognitive processes in the movie's overall personality makeup. So, for instance, Beebe has typed the *movie* "The Wizard of Oz" has displaying the pattern of ENFJ.

    My husband attended a lecture by Beebe on Saturday and he analyzed the movie "Rashomon." He was exploring the notion of trauma, and he assigned the movie a type pattern of INFP.

    I can't comment on this further (since I didn't attend the lecture or listen to the audio from it yet), yet perhaps it will give you something to consider as you work through your own dance with the depression archetype.

    How did this land with you?
    • rax
      rax
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      Re: Depression Blues Ennui etc

      Wed, January 30, 2008 - 3:36 AM
      Interesting to read "India is a country where introverted Feeling seems to predominate in collective consciousness"
      (since I am indian).
      I'm interested to find out why this is true, if it is true. Is there a reason for this collective introverted Feeling. Is it religion (hinduism?) or recent history (british occupation)? or something else that brings out that aspect.

      Also interesting to read about typecasting movies. Did he say anything about Amelie?
  • Re: Depression Blues Ennui etc

    Mon, January 28, 2008 - 11:53 AM
    First of all ..if youd like I can put my little finger in that hole in your heart to fill the space if it makes you feel better.....lol
    Im not sure if anyone here has spoken on depression and how it affects us..I would have to look back on some of the post....
    Personally I used to suffer from depression as a kid but now although It still comes and goes, I am able to handle it better and I know when its there becasue I tend to sleep more and spend plenty of time alone inside my head. Ive never been treated for anything but I read alot of self hepl book s and practice positive thinking. and affirmations (hope I spelled that right) ....the power of the mind sort of thing ...it works for me.
    It would be nice to read more personal responses ...It might shed some light for me as well.
    hope your feeling better and that you find the help your looking for Alan!
    • Re: Depression Blues Ennui etc

      Mon, January 28, 2008 - 9:30 PM
      Spiraling

      Where do I start?
      How do I end?
      Where am I going
      in circles, in circles
      Can't catch a break
      or a smile, or a friend
      Tell me true, would someone like you
      hold me encircled
      in sweet, strong arms
      hold me close and whisper
      "all is well"?
      It's Hell! I tell you
      when Heaven seems so near
      But the fear, it circles
      keeping me so tight,
      so trembling,
      so dis-eased.
      It's not that there's someone
      who needs to be pleased
      by my shame, by my fame
      which escaped me,
      by my deep prone supplication,
      by my pain.
      But if I don't please them,
      they're sure to shut me down.
      I know, you must know
      what I mean.
      I see you hiding those tears,
      acting like fear is the killer
      of souls.
      What I need to know:
      Could someone like you
      hold me so tight
      make it all right
      tell me you care
      always be there
      deep in the night when I
      just need to write
      one more freak-out poem?
      Could you be a safe home
      for my poetry and me
      in those times when it
      kills me to hide
      in circles, in circles?

      (c) October 1, 2007 Laurie Corzett/libramoon
  • rax
    rax
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    Re: Depression Blues Ennui etc

    Mon, January 28, 2008 - 8:12 PM
    I wouldn't prescribe this to anyone, but when I used to feel low/depressed/blue, .... I'd celebrate it.
    I'd bring out the tealights/candles, put on some sappy music ("secret garden" anyone?), and I'd let it all out.
    I would feel much better the next day. Empty. Clear headed.
    Ofcourse, all this "drama" was a party of one.

    There was a time (teens/early twenties) when I would write it out on paper and let that be an avenue of melancholic expression.
    Anyway, of late, I dont really go through these motions. Darn, I miss my pity parties!

    Treatments I'd suggest :
    1. Treat yourself to some good chocolate (or anything else you like). dark chocolate is a good upper.
    2. buy something you've been wanting, but holding back on (a hole in your pocket, to match/patch the one in your heart)
    3. Write about the hole in your heart. Make it a song, an ode, a novella.
    4. curl up (literally) in a warm bed and sleep long into the morning.
    • Re: Depression Blues Ennui etc

      Mon, January 28, 2008 - 9:21 PM
      very nice Rax.. your so much fun even when your depressed it seems : )
      • Re: Depression Blues Ennui etc

        Mon, January 28, 2008 - 9:30 PM
        I like Rax's suggestions...

        I seem to suffer from depression when I have no goals to strive for, no gardens to tend...gotta feed the brain healthy food...
        • Re: Depression Blues Ennui etc

          Tue, January 29, 2008 - 8:21 AM
          So true, I'm having particular trouble coming up with the solution this time...

          Thanks all for your words. Having people understand wherre you're coming from while dwelling on life's little dissappointments helps a lot.
      • rax
        rax
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        Re: Depression Blues Ennui etc

        Wed, January 30, 2008 - 3:53 AM
        Thanks,
        When it rains on my parade, I like to dance in the rain.
        :P
        • Re: Depression Blues Ennui etc

          Wed, January 30, 2008 - 5:15 AM
          I can hardly picture you sad in anyway, you have such a positive outlook on life....dancing in the rain ..nice..Ill have to remember that one!
          • rain

            Wed, January 30, 2008 - 2:45 PM
            Rain-X

            Dark, stormy roads.
            I bravely observe through my windshield
            which I have learned to protect with
            a magical coating
            brought from that place of wisdom,
            a coating to aid clear vision,
            too slippery for rain to cling.
            The rains have always come
            soaking to my bones,
            blinding tears to dampen
            the dust,
            some say making life possible.
            But that only works out if
            I can see my road clearly,
            the streams and ponds delineated.
            Too blinded by the storm, I could drown.
            Clear, serene, alive with joy and pleasure,
            I have learned the route to wisdom,
            though not yet found the payment
            to make it my home.
            On that poorly paved and lonely road
            I seem to always be traveling,
            beset by sudden storms
            or long-raging desperation,
            I am glad to have my slippery potion,
            it's gift of clarity of vision,
            for these storms are so magnificently
            beautiful.

            (c) January 27, 2008 Laurie Corzett/libramoon
            • rax
              rax
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              Re: rain

              Thu, January 31, 2008 - 2:14 AM
              Ex-rain
              (inspired by Rain-X)


              Its been a while,
              (and maybe I should smile?),
              since my storms
              are long overdue.

              All I have,
              are pale blue skies,
              rarely a cloud,
              or a hint perhaps,
              of darkness looming yonder.

              Somethings amiss,
              Is it numbness
              that I feel inside,
              or is this
              what it feels like,
              to be normal?
              (and boring.)

              I wish they'd be back,
              my emotional storms,
              for I long to dance in the rain.

              My emotional storms,
              I wish they'd be back,
              for those storms are so magnificently
              beautiful.

              --

              (Thanks Laurie for inspiring that, and sorry for blatantly picking that last line from your beautiful poem.
              I haven't written a line of verse in a long time, and I think your poem made me "feel" like writing again.
              I felt strong, good emotion. Maybe not a storm, but there was definitely a little drizzle,
              .... and I gleefully danced in it.)

              And my apologies to Alan for hijacking this thread (sort of?).
              I hope you are taking care of yourself and feeling better.
              If you feel like writing about that tiny hole in your heart, I think it'd come out beautiful.

              rax
              • Re: rain

                Mon, February 4, 2008 - 8:26 AM
                haha yes im doing much better, again for no rhyme or reason it seems but maybe im just not aware enough of whats going on in my head. Beautiful poems once again libra and rax.
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    Re: Depression Blues Ennui etc

    Thu, January 31, 2008 - 12:41 AM
    I agree about the iF. I think the depression and so on is the iF eating the person for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I'd much rather go to sleep than have these demons ripping me apart. Everything is ok, yet I'm still up 'till 4 kicking my ass over... basically nothing.

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